MY GUY BEST FRIENDS

why did you both lie to me?

3 is my favorite number and now i won’t, i can’t, be lied to again.

you told me you were my friend. my BEST friend

a place where i could be messy, be real, and be seen exactly as i am.

but you had secret motives

…you both did…at very developmental points in my life…you studied me

you learned me, then you broke me.

you told me you were my friend. my BEST FRIEND - only to try to become “something else” later on

make no mistake, there is nothing wrong with “something else”,

in fact, i think friendship is the most important part of “something else”.

but it was the way you pretended to be safe,

it was the way you molded yourself into becoming the words i spoke,

it was the way you denied me your friendship when you didn’t get what you wanted from me…

my body…my validation…my submission.

can men and women be friends?

i still think, yes…

as long as they don’t lie to you.